I prayed to have a peaceful Christmas and it's crazy the way I was given one, but I was given one nonetheless. A bed ridden, peaceful Christmas , spent watching documentaries and writing letters. How did it happen ? Well, it reminds me of that song we used to sing ... Stink in the barnyard pee you ... How did it happen ? Maybe cause I have a problem but ...
Three days ago I literally thought I was going to die crouched over in a hospital bed at GW sweating with all my clothes on as the nurse asked me for a 3rd time to take my clothes off so I could get X-rayed to check for Pneumonia . I was alone and hysterical thinking of a friend I knew who died of Pneumonia a couple years back . I was thinking it was just be me my luck, to run myself to death. All I kept thinking was God please spare me this time , I'm not ready to die I'm supposed to be get Merrried this summer.I don't think I ever asked God for my life before , however God spared my life this time, Lol... I'm so serious tho. I only had the flu. Some shit I hope to never experience again in life even tho I still will not be getting any flu shots . I don't believe in that stuff and I don't even want to chance it popping up. To be sweating but feel like is 30 degrees is some crazy shhh. Long story short I look terrible I sound like idk what but I'm alive if not fully well.And thankful And I'm even writing again. #MerryChristmas #HappyKwanza #Amen
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